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You don’t get eye contact. You don’t get a smile. You get instructions. She barely acknowledges you exist as anything more than background noise — a wallet, a witness, a joke she tells without words. Her dirty white Keds are front and center, planted where your self-respect should be, tapping impatiently while she talks about him like you’re not even there. You’re not competition. You’re proof she chose better. She makes you watch because she knows it hurts — because your place is spectator, not participant. Every bounce, every careless laugh, every time she turns her back on you is a reminder that you’ll never be picked. Never touched. Never wanted. Her sneaker nudges your knee, not gently — dismissively. “Stay,” she says. “Watch.” “Learn.” You exist to fund the fantasy you’re excluded from. To cheer for a team that laughs at you. To feel small while she stays untouchable and smug, grinding her Keds into your face like she’s wiping you off her life all while your bully gets the most popular girl on campus. She doesn’t reassure you. She doesn’t tease hope. She takes your humiliation and leaves you exactly where you belong — alone, beneath her, and painfully aware that she’ll walk away without a second thought. The cheerleader wins. He gets her. You get nothing — except the privilege of knowing it.